Dear Mommy,
First of all, I miss you SO much! I think of you each day
and feel the warmth of your love surround me. I miss you most around holidays
or special days, like your birthday coming up next week. You would be 58 years
old.
I used to be really angry that you were taken away from me
when I was only 14. I am now 28 and have lived half my life without you. I am
realizing more and more that you were setting me up for success until the day
you took your last breath.
I am so grateful for you staying up until 2am with me doing geometry
homework on peg boards with rubber bands. I could not open my eyes because of
the trauma from back to back emergency eye surgeries and you pushed me to
maintain that 4.0 GPA whether or not I could open my eyes and see my homework
or not. You made me so mad because you pushed me so hard at times but now I have
nothing but respect for you. Every time we were in the car you made me say “7s
to 70” or perform mental math problems… a far cry from playing “the license
plate game” on road trips but you had high expectations of me. My daily job
list was intense with positive attitude at the bottom. Mom, that has been my
biggest struggle. You were amazing, always positive even when the allopathic care
was killing you. I have to keep the words “positive attitude” constantly in my
mind otherwise I fall off track so easily. It is a practice for me and I strive
to have your grace each day. I have never met anyone else like you, your
honesty was brutal at times but pure. Your outlook on life was super bright and
everyone was drawn to you and your energy.
I am so grateful for the heart of service you and dad
instilled in me. Volunteering at church functions as an assistant to special end
children and teaching Sunday school are just a few examples. Watching you
create wonderful events with your special education classes like ‘celebrate
diversity’ where all the children, regular ed included, used wheelchairs and
other assistive devices to create beautiful art work… it is so inspirational.
You did not know that you would have a child who would lose their sight but your
experience prepared you to give me the confidence to continue on and be
successful no matter what.
I am finally forgiving you for being so hard on me and taking
each one of those experiences into something positive. So many people with
challenges are held back but I am now a Doctor of Chiropractic and I am so
proud of myself. I am grateful to have watched both you and dad give everything
you had to your careers. It is so inspirational to me, looking back, at the sacrifices
you made and the impact you made on the community. You truly served the
families of the special education children you taught and everyone still
remembers that about you.
You would be so proud of the super OCD calendar I am putting
together for my practice. I am writing all of the monthly articles a year in
advance, all the scripts, and action steps which are community service
programs. When you left your Earthly body
you gave to me your passion and drive to serve, I love you so much for
that. Thank you for picking the best dad in the world to raise me and stand by
me. He promised you as you took your last breath that he would take care of
your girls, and mom he has fulfilled that promise to you.He told me that even
though you were in a coma you had a single tear fall from your left eye as he
held your hand, telling you that he would make sure we were okay. I know you
heard him, believed him and left us in his hands.
I miss you so much and know that we are connected through
universal intelligence. Your spirit is beautiful and alive inside of me and I
just want you to know how much I love you.
Love,
Bethy
ADIO Love,
Dr. Elizabeth M. Wisniewski
Doctor of Chiropractic
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